Obesity and Health Care
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I know a lot of you thought I went insane. Well, I have slowly begun to build my self-esteem back up by focusing on my strengths and on how lucky I am to have a wonderful family, good friends, and a job that keeps me busy and wealthy.
I went on a few "diets." And like most diets, they failed. I was hungry and cranky all the time. My quality of life was not good. I blew $200 on Nutrisystem, and I discovered the food was just as crappy as the last time I did the program - unless you enjoy soy and water for dinner! The serving sizes were a big joke. You can have two carrots for a snack! It's nothing but a starvation program, and I was stupid enough to fall for it. When my mind is not strong, I start to believe the fat haters gospel. I take it for truth, and doubt myself.
I'm still working on my body image. I'm not happy with my clothing size or the way my body looks. I just kinda jiggle around, you know. I'm trying to focus on my health - not my shape - in order to get over these insecurities. Also, I continue to tell myself what this 300+ pound body can do throughout the day. It gets me through a 40+ hour work week. It lets me play with my new puppy in the backyard. It lets me lift heavy objects for those who can't. It helps me hug those I love. Just because I don't have the body of a supermodel does not mean my body is ugly or worthless. All of the qualities that make me an individual do not have to be tangible anyway!
And that fast food addiction of mine? Well, I let myself eat the stuff two times a week now. It keeps the dollars in my purse. My consumption of fast food was making me groggy most of the time. It wasn't satisfying my hunger. I was eating it out of stress. It was an addiction, as I stated before.
I'm discovering new foods via cookbooks, the Food Network, and Martha Stewart magazines. There are so many fresher foods that I enjoy, and I always forget to eat 'em! I DO care about my health, but I'm aware that my weight is not the sole factor of it.
As for that "heath" thing, it's still kicking! No major problems.
